Midwifery is not just my job, it’s my lifestyle. I often ask people “so, what do you do?” as a way of small talk. I recognize that not everyone puts as much weight on this question as I do. I have been spoiled- once I decided on my career and completed my training to start it, i found myself in a job that was fulfilling. I get to help change people’s lives- whether it be welcoming their new baby into the world or putting in their IUD so they don’t end up with an unintended pregnancy.
Having an emotionally challenging pregnancy- first accepting the difficult diagnosis of Down Syndrome and then living with the poor prognosis that oligohydramnios gave at 27 weeks, my view of pregnancy has changed. Laboring with a baby that I very much wanted to keep inside me, knowing that her birth might also be her death, has changed my view of childbirth. Helping women in their gyn life- wanting to get pregnant, wanting to avoid pregnancy- it’s all still assisting them in their childbearing life.
Mabel has made my work painful. My once career-lifestyle has turned into just a job. I have my fulfilling moments but they are balanced by painful ones. Mabel has inspired me to look beyond midwifery, to realize that there might be other things I could do. I don’t know what they are or if i’ll do them. This inspiration might be temporary, but for now, it gets me out of bed in the morning.